Thinking and Driving

As I headed home from the hospital tonight I was trying not to give into crying. Crying and driving don't mix very well. So I decided to ask myself the question. Self, what are you most sad about when it comes to Ethne being gone? Is it the coulda shouldas, is it the what could have been, or is the plans you had for her that won't be recognized. It isn't the coulda shouldas. When it comes to that I was so blessed to get to watch Ethne almost every day and share her with her parents. I think it is the what could have beens. The things I thought would happen as she grew up. How much fun we would have as I watched her as the oldest child in her family, the oldest sister, the niece to my boys.

The fun she and Isaac would have as she and her uncle grew up together. But then I thought how wonderful it is that Heavenly Father has given us a glimpse into what WILL be. There WILL be a reunion on the other side. There WILL be an eternal family because of the covenants that her parents took before she was born. There WILL be and ARE family on the other side waiting for her with open arms. There WILL be a comforter for us on this side who will take away our pains and sorrows when it is time. There WILL be a time when Lawrence and Melissa have a happy reunion with Ethne. There WILL be the time that they get to raise their daughter. There IS a little girl who is so perfect that she doesn't have to go through the trials that we who are still on this earth have to endure. There ARE 2 people who were so entrusted with this little girl who the Lord knew could handle this heartache, learn from it, and come out better for the experience. Although this is so hard at this time. I am so thankful for knowing what WILL be.